Bittersweet Existance

hmmm

2007-06-11T09:35:41Z

What color is your soul painted?

Black

Your soul is painted the color black, which embodies the characteristics of modernity, formality, power, sophistication, elegance, wealth, mystery, style, anger, sadness, remorse, rebellion, loss, discord, confusion, and absorbing negativity. Black falls under the element of Earth, and symbolizes outer space and the universe, and in some cultures black represents fertility and wisdom.

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Okay, the sad thing is part of that sort of fits.

I am now playing Infection, please join my team

2006-11-30T22:37:39Z


my status

my team status

infection status

game status

I guess this is a new game from the makers of the game in my last post. I dont know much about it yet, I just know that I joined a team named pirate ninjas. I would describe why I chose that team, but honestly....Pirates that are Ninjas...you can't get much cooler than that.

~Jen~

combat caaard.

2006-11-30T21:59:47Z

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

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I'll update about how my trip went and stuff soon. I just dont feel like typing that much right now.

~Jen~

anamia83 @ 2006-11-07T01:22:00

2006-11-07T05:22:46Z

This made me laugh. Gabe reminds me of me sometimes.

~Jen~

The Butchies!

2006-10-28T05:16:00Z

I ♥ The Butchies!

Just thought I'd point that out.

My fingers are freezing off..

2006-10-27T23:15:35Z

So...fucking...COLD...*shivers*

Comments!

2006-10-25T18:48:35Z

Top Commenters on anamia83's LiveJournal
(Self and anonymous comments excluded from rankings)

1	lolagabanna	66
2	silent_screem	44
3	autumncannibal	31
4	thespianbanker	25
5	tmcmistress	24
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lmao. WoW eats your soul!

2006-05-09T19:58:57Z

Bwah ha ha...ha ha ha!

Totally me...and pretty much everyone else I know. lol.

♥ Penny Arcade!

~Jen~

Lmao!

2005-12-08T06:44:16Z

Hehe I stole this from Sam :)

Jennifer Lynn Tulett's Aliases

Your movie star name: Nachos Harry

Your fashion designer name is Jennifer Brussels

Your socialite name is Spaz Kalamazoo

Your fly girl / guy name is J Tul

Your detective name is Horse Harper Creek

Your barfly name is Doritoes Long Island Ice Tea

Your soap opera name is Lynn Congress

Your rock star name is Reeses Train

Your star wars name is Jenann Tultj

Your punk rock band name is The Depressed Spork

The Amazing Meganame Generator

And another...

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

For the most part that was pretty accurate. *shrug*

~Jen~

anamia83 @ 2005-09-28T21:22:00

2005-09-29T01:22:12Z

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
anamia83 goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a cross dressing easter bunny.
baldbeasty gives you 19 dark green grapefruit-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
heidismommy tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy!
katesclamshack gives you 7 light orange lemon-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
makijen909 gives you 1 dark green evil-flavoured jawbreakers.
mi_swissmiss gives you 10 mottled green watermelon-flavoured pieces of taffy.
midnitekittie13 gives you 12 tan peach-flavoured gumdrops.
quest2bperfect gives you 9 softly glowing grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
silent_screem tricks you! You lose 27 pieces of candy!
skittlesforlife gives you 11 red-orange evil-flavoured nuggets.
zaapiel gives you 3 dark blue lemon-flavoured gummy worms.
anamia83 ends up with 40 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

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TWO of you TRICKED me....grrr...lol..

~jen~

random quizzes, not a real entry...really

2005-09-26T04:03:35Z

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

Update will be tomorrow, just not in the mood to update right now

~jen~

my mindmap :)

2005-08-08T00:37:00Z

MindMap

probably should have put that under a cut, but im not sure how to do an LJ cut yet..im a dork LOL :) ~jen~

Kim YAY!

2005-08-01T01:33:43Z

Kim is so great and fabulous. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE's Teh 1337ZORS!!!1!!1111!!1!!one!!11!1 YES SHE IS

meh

2005-03-20T02:46:41Z

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

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im sick. it sucks. ~jen~

more tests

2004-09-08T22:15:59Z

How to make a anamia83

Ingredients:

1 part competetiveness

1 part arrogance

5 parts joy

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little fitness if desired!

Personality cocktail
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username
Date of birth
Number of fingers on your left hand
Name	Hootie McBoob
Hair colour	Red
Most used quote	Up and at them
Job	Dominatrix
Enemy	Patty and Selma

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HOOTIE MCBOOB! THATS FLIPPIN HILLARIOUS THAT is my new nickname! hootie mcboob!

How would you do on my A.P psychology test?

Exellent! Your a natural pychologist and have more than just an innate understanding of how the mind works. Either that or you are a senior in highschool and just had the same test as me.....

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heh, and i havent even taken one psychology class in my life, i guess all those years in therapy and psych wards is paying off (*cough*) yeah so psychology is the class i am MAJORLY looking forward to taking in college! WOO HOO! *claps*

Which SpongeBob SquarePants character are you?

Patrick

You are a pink starfish who never wheres a shirt. You are unemployed and you live under a rock

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My angst tastes like...

Cherry
Find your angst's flavor

mwah ha ha.....does a "good" relationship actually exist out there somewhere?

various crap...random quizzes that you probably dont care about LMFAO

2004-05-26T18:09:00Z

"ACHTUNG!

anamia83 may actually be a spider-human hybrid

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You're a Garbage Pail Kid!! You're dirty, foul,
disgusting, and wrong. But you're still funny
as hell.

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jenspaz is a radioactive squirrel!!

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You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

What kind of kiss are you?
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-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Which Rent character are you?

click me

2004-05-19T19:06:35Z

http://www.crush007.com/love.cgi?id=1084993426cdf

~JEN~

meh

2004-05-17T19:01:07Z

word count

2004-05-08T18:28:31Z

anamia83's Word Usage

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2. to (374)	27. with (58)	52. or (35)	77. an (25)
3. and (343)	28. do (57)	53. want (35)	78. as (25)
4. the (254)	29. what (56)	54. its (34)	79. by (25)
5. that (191)	30. go (53)	55. am (33)	80. told (25)
6. my (185)	31. she (53)	56. from (33)	81. much (25)
7. it (147)	32. if (51)	57. are (32)	82. eating (25)
8. a (135)	33. now (51)	58. no (32)	83. myself (25)
9. so (127)	34. out (50)	59. one (32)	84. some (24)
10. me (123)	35. know (49)	60. again (32)	85. weight (24)
11. you (118)	36. will (48)	61. eat (31)	86. today (23)
12. of (112)	37. about (48)	62. he (30)	87. went (23)
13. is (102)	38. they (47)	63. didnt (29)	88. where (21)
14. was (94)	39. when (46)	64. jen (29)	89. which (21)
15. in (88)	40. her (44)	65. cause (29)	90. well (21)
16. have (87)	41. can (41)	66. them (28)	91. havent (21)
17. for (86)	42. your (40)	67. back (28)	92. take (21)
18. like (80)	43. feel (40)	68. going (27)	93. time (20)
19. im (80)	44. would (40)	69. more (27)	94. care (20)
20. get (76)	45. up (40)	70. we (27)	95. cant (20)
21. dont (72)	46. be (39)	71. really (27)	96. way (20)
22. on (72)	47. had (39)	72. been (27)	97. sister (20)
23. but (65)	48. how (39)	73. there (26)	98. ive (19)
24. at (64)	49. got (36)	74. think (26)	99. because (19)
25. not (62)	50. this (36)	75. too (25)	100. said (18)

Username:
Word Count by Hutta.

~JEN~

LMAO

2004-05-04T00:03:14Z

i had to post this, it made me laugh

~JEN~

real update coming soon I PROMISE (sorry so many, i got carried away, forgive me please)

2004-04-22T20:31:19Z

UGH i just havent felt like updating lately but i had to add this cause its sad but oh so true....*sigh* i give you my word that a real update will come soon, like tuesday ish ;) ~JEN~

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Color
Say what??	"sigh"

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Color
Say what??	"If your going to get in trouble for it, you might as well do it."

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Gay or Not Gay? by tashay17
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Gay or Not Gay?	Gay... very gay

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WHO ME??? *snickers* so im gay, now what?

Which Broadway Musical Are You Destined to perform in? by dangerousgame
Name/Nickname
Age
Sex
Color
Broadway Musical	Les Miserables
Part	Lead

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heh, at least im a lead....

What Lesbian Are You? by lostpotential
name?
occupation?	Navy Seal
lesbian stereotype?	Mullet Wearing Bull-Dyke
lesbian drama?	Ex Girlfriends Galore
cause of death?	Not Gay Enough
gayness?	82.9%

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AHHHHHHH NOT A MULLET NO!!!! ~JEN~

meh

2004-04-01T21:44:43Z

i wrote a huge entry for today and fucking lost it cause of LJ being so messed today and im slightly mad so this is all for today.....

I
am 45.2%

LJ
ADDICT!

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You Beat Me?

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After All, anamia83 did.

*yoink from asowombat*

take this test

2004-02-21T19:23:51Z

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one more quizzy thing

2004-01-15T01:31:35Z

you are darkredviolet
#600B40

Your dominant hues are red and magenta. You love doing your own thing and going on your own adventures, but there are close friends you know you just can't leave behind. You can influence others on days when you're patient, but most times you just want to go out, have fun, and do your own thing.

Your saturation level is high - you get into life and have a strong personality. Everyone you meet will either love you or hate you - either way, your goal is to get them to change the world with you. You are very hard working and don't have much patience for people without your initiative.

Your outlook on life is slightly darker than most people's. You try to see things for what they are and face situations honestly. You'd rather get to the point than look for what's good.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

hungry, empty, lost in her pain, she cant tell you, so she slowely fades away.....

2003-11-17T20:28:13Z

this weekend i decided that since everyone that usually gives me rides to church was away at youth explosion in ohio that i HAD to find SOME church to go to. so i called chris and marrianne, marrianne wasnt home, and i later found out shes been in alot of stress lately so i didnt ask her, but chris was home, so i asked her. first i just asked if she knew anyone that goes past my apartment on the way to church (she doesnt)and she said she didnt know off hand, but she could call me back, so we talked for awhile and she finally said that she was going to the EMMETT STREET MISSIONARY church and asked if i wanted to come since it isnt too far from where i live. i said SURE and went. the service was alright, there were some people guest singing there that sounded a lot like the GAITHERS and thats not really my style of music but their songs hit home and i needed that. anyway, after the service i was waiting to leave and meeting all of chris's realitives, and i looked in the back of the sanctuary and i saw someone that i thought i knew. i looked again and he points at me, and smiles and im like HEY!!!! it was DARREN!!!!!! (old youth pastor if you didnt know that already) and i havent seen him in AGES! he had his son with him and his son IS TALLER now! i almost didnt recognize him! and darren gave me a hug and we talked for awile. he said he use to be youth pastor at that church before he was at friends and has been going back to ESMC for like three months now! it was nice to see a familiar face though that made my day! on the down side....chris invited me to lunch at her moms house and since she knows about my ed behaviors i told her the truth, and she was VERY understanding about it (thank GOD) and said she will invite me another time *sigh of relief* i felt rude saying no, but i KNOW i just couldnt deal with the feeling of a full let alone HALF full tummy!

this morning i weighed in on my cheap-o scale at 130! i am super happy, but i know that what i ate today will make me retain water and that sucks, maybe tonight if i leave soon enough i can get dieretics from felpausch (money stealers!) i wonder if i can take them and my mini thins together. i figured that the weight i have gained was from water but i dont know how to get rid of it. i drank coffee, but that just makes you pee alot and the caffeine makes you retain. im afraid i may have to break off the relationship between me and my mini thins. yuck

i was suppose to go see Lori today but she apparently emailed me and i didnt get it in time, when i got there at 11:30 the receptionist said she was gone to court and wouldnt get back till 12, and had a meeting at 1. so i forgave her since she is the BESTEST CASEWORKER in the UNIVERSE and she HAS to do it ;) and she called me and left a message that she would try to get back with me cause i called her crying and asked if she would pray for me. she said i really sounded like i needed to talk, so she would make sure to call me as soon as possible, she is a busy bee though ;) which is good cause she kicks butt as a worker! i luff you lori! ;) so i walked to kcc where i am now.

i havent eaten much at all for the last 8 days. this morning was the most ive had in awhile- i had
~one big fat deli dill pickle
~one half a diet faygo creme soda
~one mini thin
~water
i am proud in a weird way yet VERY exhausted! i cant go anywhere anymore without huffing and puffing. i have little to NO energy at all! which is annoying but satisfying in an odd sense!

i had a LONG conversation over yahoo messager about mercy to a girl that is applying there, i am happy about what i said. GOOD LUCK TO YOU if you are reading, mercy is an awesome place. i definatly recommend it to any of you who are seeking recovery and cant afford other places (who can?) the link to their website is http://www.mercyministries.com if you were wondering, they are a residential girls facility that treats eating disorders, teen pregnancy, abuse issues, self injury, suicidal ideation and past suicide attempts, drug issues, and lots more! check it out! what can it hurt?

well i have bored you enough, ill write more later! luvvins!
~JEN~